fky deni

i've stopped drinking, but only while i'm asleep.
[george best]

hmm...been very busy. went to memphis, tn for the first time - AWESOME. had an absolute blast, and it was really good to see all of the associates. def overslept tho and almost missed the bus. grr. saw a lot of beale st. and the peabody is pretty cool - they have ducks that swim in the fountain!

after memphis, it was time to come home and recover - only to head to dc the next weekend. saw dan the man, which is always a good time. and took gabs out on the town - sans random guys this time. we went out to tysons to meet up with gerard and deniz - that is their new spot - chill's in tysons. cause its a really happenin' place....or maybe cause someone thinks the hostess is hot. haha. took deniz out for his b day, then chilled @ bens apt. while we played with baby his cat and ben made redic. comments.

came home at 7am in time to pack to head to nyc (yeah...that sucked). here's where the crazyness begins. when i got into town i met up with laubs, katey, and wbb at espn zone for a few drinks and "dinner" (aka 2 huge beers and a small bowl of soup). then wbb and i went out to the bars on 3rd st since i had such a good time with joe and dan and lisa the first time. 2 for 1 mojitos. so wbb and i proceed to chug like 5. hit up bar 515, bill ran into a tree and i completely blew up joes celly trying to wake him up. haha. but i did meet up with him, polan, mike (from my pledge class at pct) the next night. mike: "i can't get drunk tonight denise - i am swamped with work and i haven't been getting much sleep - i need to take it easy and be home at like midnight" well, 7 beers, 2 pina coladas, a lemon drop and tequila shot later...needless to say mike was late for work. (on a business related note, the buildingsny show, which was why i was there, was a complete success - yay!)

hamptons....insanity. in case you couldn't tell from the myspace comments wbb left me. a short list:

* making new friends: angry striped shirt kid; kids that wanted to fight garrett; the mother at the hotel; the old lady next door; the maids
* "shut the fuck up you horrid little monsters!!!!"
* hopping to the hotel room: "this isn't trex! i'm going to get splinters!!"
* getting out of the car at 7-11: "did you just change your clothes? and why are you wearing my shirt?"
* "guess what i'm not wearing...."
* batting practice with ice and a shuffleboard stick
* dirty bird running from the cops
* a LOT of alcohol + unlocked pool + idiots like us = trouble
* "this is so weird...i'm the most conservatively dressed person here"
* "you haven't been drinking today..." "wanna bet?"

needless to say, i didn't get much sleep. after the show i was too tired to mess with fighting hamptons traffic and maybe missing my ferry (plus bridgeport at night is not the best place for me) i stayed with my cousin - had an awesome dinner and managed to polish off half a bottle of rum.

so begins another week. it's the end of the qtr so i really gotta get all my stuff in this week, like all my old expense reports. fun fun. and ops reports are due. its going to be a couple late nights. def worth it after an incredible whirlwind couple of weeks :)

posted by denise @ 8:35 PM 0 comments

some people get so rich they lose all respect for humanity. that's how rich i want to be.
[rita rudner]

as the bills keep coming, i am reminded that i don't need new clothes. and yet i get them anyway. to be fair; i did just get a $700 ticket to memphis that is reimbursed; as well as my usual phone bill. lets just hope that payday is this friday and i can get rent done. and football season ticket money is due like a month ago (but they messed up so i'm jsut getting the bill now) i need an accountant. and a serious budget. "champagne taste on a beer budget" as my mom calls it. SO true.

my stupid apartment has decided now, 9 months into my 12 month lease, that i never paid the security deposit. i asked how much on my account was needed when i moved in. whatever they told me is what i wrote the check out for. seems stupid that now i need to give them money. grr!

aaaand my a/c is broken, so according to my thermostat it is 90+ degrees. I can't giev you an exact temp because hte needle is as high as it will go. wow.

there is good news: watching Evander Holyfield attempt to quick step. haha. and his poor partner was sooo tiny. trista got eliminated, which was bad cause her, the seinfeld guy, and evander are the only people i know. and of course abc touts them as just "evander" like youre supposed to just know. ok, bad example cause i did know him. but "rachel" [rachel hunter, the host from are you hot]??? regardless; it was an interesting show.

toby keith was on leno tonight (as well as the nastiest food ever - a hotdog wrapped in hamburger, deep fried, and on top was chili, bacon, and a fried egg...100 grams of fat) and this song fits me today.

currently listening:
i ain't as good as i once was
[toby keith]

posted by denise @ 12:51 AM 0 comments

i never forget a face, but in your case i'll be glad to make an exception
[groucho marx]

wow, def been a while. i have been keeping busy with work and travel - but i figured that redic long survey would hold people over, haha. which, i went through and changed all the mistakes (like a few questions i left from pat's answers)

anyway. i'm going to have to work backwards on this one. yesterday (err, 2 days ago since its 2am) mikey and krissy got married!!! so excited for them. sleepover for sara and i - staying up waaaay too late the night before cause we were so excited. meanwhile the bride was very cool, calm, and collected. and looked gorgeous. and it was even more fun chillin with deniz, ben, fabiana, gerard, candice, and sara. (and duh!! mikey and krissy) after the wedding chilled at mr smiths for a hot min, then it was back to sara's to meet up with phil and alex for some good old fashioned beer pong (yeah...and i didnt make one cup...my bad alex) but fabiana came out, which was awesome.

other highlights included rhino, which actually was a really good time. well i thought everything i did was funny anyway. and going out with gabs which was also awesome (also to rhino, haha). def def doing it again - minus the sketchy boys. haha. (and we'll drag lauren out too!!)

the rook got married as well; that was a ton of fun. paige : "oh shit i forgot! im out on the lake... why didnt you call me yesterday asshole??" haha. chilled with herst, and megan, and did a couple shots with yvonne - mcnitt would be so proud. haha. the whole 231c gang was there ... good times

ive been kinda on a wierd roller coster lately. annoyed with more than one person. the first; more because i cant really avoid this person, just apalls me sometimes. i was really shocked at how rude this person could be; and how thoughless of others. but now, i just feel sorry for them. i would hate to be in thier shoes - i really can't think of any friends this person has. and i'm so lucky to have such awesome people in my life. they all should know who they are - they are the ones that keep me sane. (and sometimes act as the little angel on my shoulder telling me, "denise! be nice!") haha.

im a little dissapointed in myself for being too naive. i trust people too easily; and get sucked into more drama than i really need. i thought i was actually maybe making a new friend; it turns out i was obv wrong. which sucks; because i did enjoy the company, and it's not like im so popular that i can reject friendship, esp since i moved up here. but after being annoyed for a while i've found i'm pretty much insuciant. (haha im such adork - i read that word in a newsletter today and wanted to use it) ive managed to get this far in life with my current friends; i'll live. looks like after that expiration date is past, theres no sense in trying to save it. hopefully this time ive learned my lesson. and if nothing else - theres no need for me to stress over it. i did my part - i cant make someone want to be my friend.

sometimes i think of that cartoon by jules feiffer. its the one where a nam meets up with a guru. he asks the guru, "which way is success?" the old sage guru points to a place off in the distance. the man eagerly takes off in that direction. suddenly there is a loud "SPLAT." He limps back to the guru to ask again, and again the guru points in the same direction. the man walks off once more, but this time the splat is even louder. by the time the man crawled back he is broken and irate. he screams at the guru, "i asked you which way is success! i followed your directions! and all i got was splatted!!" finally the guru speaks. "success is that way. just a little past splat"

def feel like im still getting splatted. but at the same time, i remember another quote (i dont remember where from) "Accomplishment, leading to self-esteem, is not just about doing something...It is about the courage to persist though pain and failure and self-doubt." i really like that; because it applies in so many areas of my life - both personal and professional. so maybe i'm not quite at self actualization just yet (awww mr mamamma whoever would be so proud...yeah psych minor!!), but im ok with that.

aaaaand i need to put myself on a serious budget. i tend to act all the time like money just falls from the sky; but very soon this is going to catch up to me. like next month. sigh.

wow, kinda all over with this blog. i just really needed to vent. after almost a week's vacation i'm back to the real world - rent is due, student loans are a callin; claims appointment in the dirty jerz tom (just how i want to get back into my week). of course, can't end all complainin - i do have a pretty good life. mvp quote for the past 2 weeks has gotta go out to my mom. "you mean the one who looks like a rooster?" haha.

currently listening:
booty call - northeast groovers remix
[blackstreet]

posted by denise @ 1:40 AM 0 comments